Beneath Skin Deep

Hi All...

Plans are in progress in transitioning back to wordpress at
http://www.laylachow.wordpress.com
... I will be getting my links back to wordpress because I am liking the features more at wordpress. Sorry for the inconvenience.

Rgds,
Layla

I ain't talking about car racing although F1 might be happening in Singapore (I think it's still uncomfirmed?) Don't take my word on that though. I ain't talking about illegal substances either that are used to assist in one to have fun and stay awake or perhaps to lose weight. But... I am however talking about "speed" in technology for broadband for internet usage (data and voice).

I read this article released on 23 October 2007 by The University of Melbourne at the following link: http://uninews.unimelb.edu.au/articleid_4705.html

It discusses how Dr John Papandriopoulos was presented a prize for developing technology that could make broadband 100 times faster than it currently is. This is amazing since currently fibre optics are used to obtain these kind of speeds. Now having this man discover this technology just goes beyond what can be achieved. But when does one draw the line?

When will it be fast enough that the demand of "I want it faster" be no longer insisted? Sometimes I wonder...

I am scared...
I am unsure of what may happen...

But I know talking to you ends up making me grin like nothing before.
I know that I can't wait for the next time to be able to talk to you again.
I know that I want to get to know you.

I missed you...

Relative wedding ceremonies tend to be a time where you get to meet the relatives and cousins that you never knew you had or you knew you had but you just never kept in contact with.

I had to admit... tonight was something like that. I dragged myself to my 3rd Uncle's daughter's wedding. Since my father's family is quite large, a bus picked us up from my parent's place and drove us to the hotel. It was the first time I have ever been to a wedding ceremony. I totally missed out my cousin's I's wedding 2 years ago when I wasn't in town so today I got my first dosage of meeting the "family". (The next time will be yours cousin C!)

So the usual questions popped up again. As expected...
"When will it be your turn?"
"Are you seeing someone?"

Funny I don't see my priorities as being to meet someone and get married as soon as possible. Even if I did meet the person right now that I liked and spend my time with them... I have my own plans for me right now that I need to get done. How selfish of me right?

Had a few relatives tease me saying how "handsome" I was and how I shouldn't enter the ladies since I would have entered the wrong toilets. *Frowns distastefully*. Sensing my Dad's eldest sister suspects me, she keeps asking about my friend T's whereabouts.

It is exhausting sometimes just hiding but in so many ways... I feel relieved that they don't know much about me. Sometimes things are better left the way it is. Shouldn't question it and just accept the things the way they are right now right? Am I convincing myself or the world?

The following is an excerpt of the interpretation of actions.
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It's only when I sleep and I see you in my dreams, you got me spinning round and round... turning me upside down and all confused.

Secrets are brewing. I couldn't resist when I first saw you... your smell... your touch... your whisperings. Making me want more of something that I know I can never have. You acted as if nothing ever happened between us after that night.

I would die for you... I would do anything for you. How twisted it resulted as a love triangle... I only have him because I know you two are in love but he chose me. The truth is just a sick joke. Secrets are brewing...

Your touch... your breath... your lips...

It's all disappeared. Reason I am with him is so I can keep you close to me. Don't you see? Can't you see? Do you know the loneliness I feel when I am with him. Can't you see all this time all I had wanted is just you? Only when I sleep it all seems that my troubles go away and you are near... But you act everything is ok. What are you feeling inside? I still have feelings for you... but you are growing distant... whatever happened? Tell me... whatever happened?

Have you heard the paedophile suspect held in Thailand?

A Canadian schoolteacher Christopher Paul Neil has been arrested and placed with charges of sexually abusing Thai boy(s).

It feels like me watching SVU on the weekdays on channel 5. What is wrong with these people? What is he thinking? I don't even know how to comprehend such news headlines truthfully. What is this world coming to...